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Hilary Hattenbach's avatar

Beautiful piece, Autumn. It made me tear up. I'm so sorry for your losses and grief and pain.💔

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Autumn Widdoes's avatar

Thank you for reading, Hilary. Appreciate it.

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Reena Kapoor's avatar

How your words resonated, Autumn! Deep condolences. Having lost both my parents in a quick spate of 16 months that started in Dec 2020, I still reel with shock every now and then when the implication that I'll never see them again lands out of the blue. For me it also dealt a loss of birth country because I no longer have a home in India where I can come and go at will. The pain instead comes and goes as it pleases and takes at will. I've written a lot about a similar grief trying to convey what it feels like and trying to make sense of this foundational loss, which is not uncommon, was (mostly) inevitable and yet...

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Autumn Widdoes's avatar

Yes, I recognize the pangs of loss here. The house I grew up in was sold and demolished once my mother died. The whole history of that part of my life physically is gone. My condolences for your loss. Thank you for reading and for sharing my essay.

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Thank you for reading.

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